Fat Porn Star Blog

I haven’t been feeling myself as of late. A lot of changes in my life in the past 6 months or so. So much just some things I rather keep personal and private. Some of it just isn’t worth mentioning. I have a lot of things on my mind and it’s just piling up on me. I need some time for me. I have been keeping to myself lately and it’s for the better. There is less drama and I m way more productive. So it’s a win win situation. Was hanging out with a small crowd for awhile but in short it just didn’t work out. As with all people eventually they just rubbed me the wrong way.

I have thought about just walking away from everything including my site; it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve entertained those thoughts. I’ve worked so hard on it for the past 6 years how can I? One day I just might say fuck it and just walk away from just about everything in my life. That’s about where I am right now.

I’m tired of giving a shit about people and putting all of my feelings and issues aside on the back burner while tending to those who don’t obviously care about me. I get shit on every time and I’m done as a whole with just about everyone.

On to other things. I am still waiting to get going with the sex toy line. It’s a lengthy process and just have to sit and wait until they are ready for me. I am anxious and excited. I want to get it done and see the end results.

I can’t believe 2008 is almost over. Summer is just about gone. I hate the summer. Unless I can vacation and be on or around the beach/ocean all Summer I don’t care for it. I welcome Fall & Winter with open arms. The holidays are upon us already. I was at the store the other day and saw they were starting to put Christmas shit up already. Give me a break. Summer isn’t over and school just started. I like the holidays but I don’t. They can be stressful, chaotic, depressing. But at the same time there’s something wholesome, peaceful & serene about it. Families coming together and sharing. It’s heartwarming.

Was looking forward to the new Harry Potter movie around Thanksgiving but they’ve postponed it for now until sometime in 2009.

I’m working on a bunch of projects, blogs, content, research etc. Research is a time hog that’s for sure but research is needed for any project if you want to do it the right way.

I have been trying to get back to a regular schedule on NiteFlirt & Private CamZ. A lot of my fans have been wondering where I have been because I haven’t been on at all the past year or so. I will try not to lose touch again. I’m on NiteFlirt & Private CamZ Monday through Friday 9am until 3pm EST and then back on again at 9pm until 1am EST. I might pop on during the weekends if I’m bored which is rare. LOL

I’ve had 3 or 4 offers from radio shows for interviews but have turned them down because my schedule is so crazy I can’t commit to something like that and my schedule changes daily at any given time.

I’m open to email interviews. I can easily type in my responses and pretty quick. Takes up less time that way.

I have two more offers to appear in two more magazines. I won’t reveal which ones until I actually shoot for them. Same goes for the toy deal. But when more info becomes available I will pass it on.